Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Damn, it's Lent
Yeah, and then I get to work. Sigh. The Dalai Lama is all smarty-pants about such things because he has never walked into the kitchen at work looking for a cup of coffee, only to find an empty pot scorching on the burner. It's not so easy to have kind words for others in that situation, believe me.
With the crawfish etouffee, red beans and rice, and paczki behind me, I begin Lent with a way-too full stomach and some thinking ahead of me. Unlike too many others, I do not give up chocolate or soft drinks--I'm more of a self-improvement kinda gal. Lent is a time of reflection for me--a time to renew my attitude, to rethink how I treat others, how I treat myself, and to maybe just think before I speak or act for once.
I like to take stock of things in my head and think about the things that need improvement--and god knows, there is a lot of that. But I am human, and so I acknowledge the brown and bruised spots of me and I work on changing that. I'm not always successful, but I think just admitting you need work is a big step in itself.
I'm not a very religious person, but I do consider myself more spiritual instead. I don't find peace in four walls and a roof, instead, I find it in the small things of this good green earth. I mean, how can you not see the miracles of this life and not know there is something deeper and more profound than us? So it is with the help of the miracles of Spring and the changes in the natural world around me that I see that this is a time of change in myself as well. A time of taking stock, turning my face to the sun, and reaching for a better me.
And to kick off my annual Lenten self-improvement plan, I usually give up swearing for the duration as well. Okay, so it's typically failed 10 seconds after my alarm goes off on Ash Wednesday, but it is the attempt that counts, right. And if I fall off that no-cussin' wagon, I'm gonna hop back on and forge ahead--with a whole lot less four-letter words.
Well....unless the idiots at work don't start making the coffee....